Save Me Page 16

  I gave her a quick kiss on her cheek and walked away to the elevator. As the door was closing, I heard her shouting that she loved me and a smile came across my lips. I knew she loved me and she told me all my life, but I was too caught up in being spoilt that I never really absorbed it. I just did, and it felt wonderful.

  I said goodbye to my usual escorts to my car and made my way home, refusing to be chauffeur-driven like my father suggested. I didn’t find it necessary, and I hated to be restricted in any way. I stopped at the traffic light, and my thoughts went to the woman who had captured my heart. The instant pain reminded me that I was not over losing her. I had accepted that my final attempt to get her back into my life was a bust, but the pain from it was just as fresh. The light had changed and I didn’t realize until the honking of horns brought me back to focus. I drove off, blinking away the tears that had gathered and I had never felt more lonely in my life.

  I wanted...needed a baby so desperately, and it felt wrong that I wanted a helpless little baby to cure my broken heart, but I would love him or her with everything inside me. I wondered if that was the reason my parents had me. I hoped not to make the same mistakes that they did where they loved me so much that they found it difficult to tell me no. I had to do better with my child because I had first-hand knowledge of how bad it could get if I didn’t. I was lucky that I caught myself when I did, but it would not have been possible if I had not met Shannon. She changed my whole direction in life.

  I looked around my apartment and it had never felt more empty. It needed life. It needed a baby. My baby. I should buy a house and prepare a home for him or her. An apartment would not provide enough room to explore. There would be a swing...a playground. I heard myself laugh out aloud at the instant joy that came over me. I knew this was something I had to get to as soon as possible because my dad was close to retiring, and I had to take over the company. As I showered, I made plans to speak with Lynn as soon as my meeting was done in the morning. I would discuss with her how to go about having a baby without a man.

  Lynn would want me to go on dates and find someone because she had no idea that I could never do that. I did not want a husband; I wanted a wife. However, my heart was only willing to accept Shannon right now so that would have to be put on hold, but I didn’t want to wait that long to have my baby. Shannon did not want children, and I knew she would not agree if we were together. I probably would have done whatever she wanted because I would be satisfied with just her, however, she is not in my life now so this decision would be mine alone. I was not too eager to share my baby anyway.

  As I walked into my bedroom, the security phone started to ring and I immediately thought that my mother made her way to my apartment. However, security never called about my mother. There would just be a knock on my door.

  “Hello?”

  “Miss Todd, Shannon is here to see you. Should I send her up?”

  My head started to spin and my heart hammered against my head. Shannon was here! I opened my mouth to answer but nothing came out and my hands started to shake. I tried again.

  “Y-yes,” I got out and quickly hang up the phone.

  I started running around in circles. I needed to get dressed so I made a mess in my drawers to find a pair of panties, pants, and a tank top. Everything was on the floor so I stuffed them back into the drawers. I quickly brushed my hair into a wet ponytail and looked in the mirror to see my nipples sticking out because I did not have on a bra. I reached to rectify that because I did not want Shannon to feel that I was happy to have her only to have sex with me. However, I was too late. The doorbell sounded and I did not want her to wait.

  I ran to the door and opened it, and there Shannon stood with her suitcase in her hand! I couldn’t move because I was not sure what I was looking at. My eyes moved from her suitcase to her expressionless face then from her face to her suitcase. I should say something...I should invite her in but the image was causing chaos in my head.

  “Hi, Ari,” she first me to it.

  “Hi,” I whispered.

  “May I come in?”

  “Sure...of course,” I said and moved away for her to enter.

  She did not go further than the inside of the door, and just stood there waiting for me to say something to her, but I did not know what to say. I knew what I wanted to do, so I did that. I wrapped my arms around her and buried my face in her neck, slowing filling my lungs with the scent of her. I felt her sigh as she reveled in the feeling of us being in each other’s arms. I slipped my fingers into her silky brown mane and held the back of her head as I kissed her head and the side of her face.

  “I missed you so much,” I whispered in her ear, and I never wanted to let her go.

  “I can’t function without you,” she replied and her words pulled my head from the comfort of her neck so that I was looking at her face.

  Her eyes were filled with water. She closed them and the tears rolled down her face.

  “Baby...what’s wrong? What happened?” I asked as I led her to the sofa.

  I knelt into the plush carpet and rose between her legs.

  “I tried, Ari. I tried so hard because I did not want to hurt Raj, but I can’t do this anymore. Every day I feel like I'm suffocating. Every day that I don’t get to see you or touch you, I die a little inside...and this is just so fucked up because I can’t have you both. I could because you offered, but I can’t watch him touch you...I just can’t,” Shannon bared her soul. “It hurts to say this, but I wish we never met because I fell in love with you immediately, and I never knew that could happen because I loved Raj so much. I don’t understand. I just don’t get what is happening here.”

  “Shannon, please calm down. Can I get you a drink so…?”

  “I don’t want a fucking drink! I want my life back...the way it was!”

  That stung so bad, and all I could do was tell myself that she was confused and hurt about this sudden turn of events in her life. Everything was perfect. She had a husband who was just as freaky as she was and would let her satisfy her wildest sexual fantasies whenever she wanted. She was happy with the way she was.

  “I’m sorry, Shannon. I didn’t mean to destroy your life. I just wanted to have some fun, and I never expected to fall in love with you. I’m sorry if I placed any demands…”

  “You didn’t place any demands on me. This is not your fault in any way. I met you and the whole fucking thing fell apart from there,” she said running her fingers through her silky hair.

  I looked at the suitcase and I could not wait any longer to ask the questions.

  “What’s in the suitcase?”

  “A few personal items. Just things I couldn’t leave behind. I just grabbed them and ran.”

  “What...what do you mean?”

  “I left Raj. It is not fair to him, and I can’t live without you anymore.”

  Her words were music to my ears, and I wanted to scream in jubilation, but I did not want to seem insensitive to the terrible situation. I held her hands in mine and she waited for me to speak, but I was not sure what to say first.

  “Shan...I don’t know where to…”

  “Don’t you dare tell me you have someone else…”

  “No! No...I…”

  “Or you don’t love me anymore…”

  “Of course I love you! I love you more than anything in this world…”

  “Then what were you saying?” Shannon asked with fear in her eyes.

  “I was saying I didn't know where to start because I want to just scream for joy that you are standing here, but you are so unhappy, then there is a suitcase, and I don’t understand what it means,” I said, hoping she could help me out.

  She started crying again, and I felt so helpless but was also very eager to hear what her plans were.

  “I left Raj, Arien. I want to be with you.”

  “I’m so sorry...I mean...I’m bursting with joy inside at having you because I thought I would never see you again...and now here you are,�
�� I said and could not stop the tears from flowing. “What did you tell him?”

  “I didn’t.”

  “What?”

  “He doesn’t know I left. I tried for three days to tell him, but I couldn’t so I packed a few things and left,” she said.

  “Have you lost your mind?” I asked as I got to my feet staring at her with the tears on my face immediately drying from shock. “You can’t just leave and not say anything to him, Shannon.”

  “I can’t. I don’t want to see him break down and...I just can’t,” she cried. “I know I don’t want to be with him anymore, but I can’t tell him.”

  “You have to go back before he gets home, Shannon...please. This is not the way to do it,” I said and held her hands. “I'm here desperate to have you because I can hardly breathe when I think about how much I adore you, but you have to end it with Raj properly.”

  “I am not going back.”

  “You have to!” I said firmly. “Let’s go.”

  I grabbed my purse and her suitcase then opened the door waiting for her to follow me out, but she would not move.

  “Shannon, let’s go.”

  “I am not leaving you,” she cried. “I was suffering before you came to the house and I have been suffering since you left. I am not leaving your side…”

  “I want you by my side, Shannon,” I said as I closed the door. “I'm not asking you to go back to Raj. I'm asking you to tell him that you fell in love with me and...”

  “I can’t, Ari.”

  “Then what will happen when he gets home and find you gone?”

  “He will call...then I will tell him.”

  I sighed in defeat. I felt as if I was robbed of the joy of having Shannon as my girlfriend because I could not celebrate knowing that things were about to get ugly for all of us. Shannon needed to come clean with Raj because he was going to be so upset that there would be no reasoning with him. Shannon was not handling it the best way but no matter what she did, her marriage was over. I felt horrible that I had done this to Raj because all he was guilty of was trying to please his wife by taking me into their home. I had no plans for this to happen and we could not help falling in love because it was instant. Shannon was mine now, and there was no way in hell I was going to let Raj or anyone take her away from me.

  Chapter 15

  I paced the living room floor with an uneasy feeling inside my stomach as Shannon took a shower. I wanted to put her suitcase inside my bedroom but the unresolved issue with Raj was haunting me. It had been thirty minutes sense she arrived, and she was not backing down from not speaking to Raj. I could only imagine how confused and hurt he would be when he realized that she was not coming home, then would come the phone call because I was sure he realized that something was going on with us and there was a great possibility that she was with me. What should I do? Do I not accept the call or should I just tell him what Shannon was afraid to?

  Raj was going to see me as the biggest betrayer on the planet because we had been friends and sex partners for the past three years, and when he took me home to his wife, he did not do so with the intention of me stealing her away from him. That was not my intention either. I was not gay. I had never been with a woman before Shannon, but one look at her and she stole my heart. I did not want to hurt him, but as long as Shannon wanted to be with me, I would fight him to the grave to keep her. She had brought so much meaning to my life and loving her has been better for me. As much as I hated hurting him, how could I give her back? How could I tell the love of my life that she belonged with someone else?

  I took a deep breath and picked up the suitcase. It was heavy but not unbearable. I wondered what was inside but it was not my place to look. I emptied one of my dresser drawers to give her somewhere to store her things. There were eight drawers so I decided to empty two more and just combine some of my things. A smile came to my lips, and I had to fight back the tears. Shannon had moved in with me. She was here! My heart had swollen too big for my chest and I had to take a moment to inhale deeply, then exhale to release the pressure.

  “That’s how I feel, babe,” Shannon said and my eyes flew open to see her standing at the doorway.

  “Shan,” I whispered and walked over to her.

  I pulled her in my arms and her damp hair fell onto my face. I felt her pull the knot from her towel and it fell to the floor on my feet. I slid my hand down her back to her sides and pulled her into me. I was not wearing a bra and my nipples came to full attention, rubbing against hers. I brought my hands up and cupped her breasts gently and the feeling of the soft mounds sent shivers down my spine. Shannon and I were extremely wild, sexual people, but I felt the need to go slow because I wanted to soak her in. I brought my lips to hers and the feeling of her softness against mine was mind-blowing.

  Shannon’s tongue came out and I released her lips and took it into my mouth. I sucked up and down the length of the soft pink organ that promised to fuck deep inside me. I held her nipples between my fingers and rolled them.

  “Oh shit…,” Shannon said into my mouth.

  I decided to give her more and released her tongue to find the nipples that were as hard as a rock between my fingers. I stopped for a moment at her neck to taste the flawless, sensitive skin. I bit into it and she release a loud moan.

  “Fucking eat me,” she breathed as I raked my teeth all over her neck.

  I went to her lips for a short kiss then lowered my lips to her breasts. I avoided the nipple and licked and bit all over the them, occasionally sucking the soft flesh in and releasing it with a sound.

  “Look at me,” I said and stuck out my tongue so she could see me lick her nipples.

  I went from under her breast and slowly licked my way up to her nipple then sucked it into my mouth.

  “Fuuuuck!” she cried out as I pulled her nipple deep into my mouth. I repeated the act as her head flew back in pleasure. “Oh my God.”

  I felt her legs buckle, so I led her to the bed with her breast still trapped inside my mouth. Shannon grabbed on to my head and forced me deeper into her flesh as she fell backward onto the bed. I released her breast for a moment so we could find a comfortable spot. She looked so breathtakingly beautiful laid out on my bed. This was where she belonged. I lowered my head to her perfect breast and flickered my tongue over her nipples. Her back arched off the bed as she cried out in pleasure and it sent waves of electricity shooting through my body.

  “Get out of these clothes,” she said and pushed me away.

  Shannon dragged my shirt over my head and pulled my pants off, then suddenly, she was on top. I had to endure the same pleasure she did as she mauled my breasts. I opened my legs wide and wrapped them around her tightly as she sucked my nipples one at a time deep inside her mouth. I started working my hips, my clit brushing her belly through the thin fabric of my panties and the orgasm had already started building up inside me.

  “Tell me what you want?” Shannon asked with my breast in her mouth, but I could not put together the words to tell her. “Do you want me to eat your pussy?”

  “Yes,” I got out.

  Shannon released my breast and licked her way to my wide-opened legs. She settled between them and pulled my panties to the side.

  “Oh fuck!” she gave out. “You are so wet,” she licked and I grabbed the sheets, “and sweet,” she licked again.

  “Shannon, stop playing with my pussy!” I grabbed her head and started fucking her lips but she pulled away.

  “Wait,” she commanded. “I want to look at you.”

  Shannon took one finger and started to explore my flesh. Slowly taking juice from my entrance and bringing it to my clit. She slowly caressed my wet, slippery clit as she licked her lips in admiration. I was losing my mind. Shannon lifted my clit, pulled on the lips, caressed inside the slit before forcefully sending her finger deep inside me.

  “Fuuuuuuuuck!” I cried out.

  My orgasm barreled forward and I knew it would be epic because I had not had
one in a long time. Shannon brought a second finger into play and fucked deep inside me, and as I was about to cum, she removed her fingers from my pussy.

  “What the fuck…,” I started then she re-entered me.

  Once again, she pulled out and this time she brought her dripping wet fingers to her mouth. I watched as she licked my juice from her fingers, her tongue going between them to get every drop.

  “I’m obsessed with the way you taste,” she said. “I’m obsessed with you.”

  I watched as she slowly brought her lips to my pussy, then the demons took her over. Shannon buried her lips between my folds and started roaming inside my pussy. She sucked, bit, and chewed on my wet flesh. She pushed my legs back so that my pussy was right there for her to destroy. Her tongue entered deep into my hole then she slowly pulled it out so that I could see my juice dripping from her tongue. She pulled it into her mouth and swallowed then licked her lips.

  “I want you to fucking cum in my mouth,” Shannon said and sank her tongue back into my pussy hole.

  I grabbed her head and fucked her mouth as my body stiffened from the force of my orgasm that was rushing forward. My whole body was about to cum and I was losing my mind. I had very little thought for Shannon's safety because I was no longer in control of myself.

  “Fuck, fuck, fuck...I’m fucking cumiiiing….fuuuuuuuuuck!” I cried out as I came forcefully, then I released Shannon and I fell back on the bed shaking.

  My whole body was in convulsion and I wanted more than anything for Shannon to stop eating me because I was about to die. She ate through my orgasm, moaning as she feasted on my cum. I could hear the wet sounds of her lips and tongue as she tried to get it all, but I could not endure much more and grabbed her by the hair and pulled her up to me.

  “Oh my God...you’re gonna kill me. Wait let me catch my breath,” I said as I panted.

  “Sorry, babe, but I have something for you.”

  Shannon climbed over my face while I was recovering from my orgasm and sat on my lips. She was dripping wet and her pussy just slid over my mouth. I opened and gave her my tongue to ride.